Me time

I am in desparate need of some me time.I havent had any at all in months and its hard to deal with the things Ive been through the past year+ and reflect on it when I never have a moment alone.I wanna start reading again

I wanna write all the pain and confusion Ive been through because writing it down helps get it out of my head.Everydays a struggle but everyday it gets easier I guess.....

I bought some new goodies as of late:

books
If I stay,Where she went
Hate List

I like reading books in the teenage section.

Cds
Theory of a Deadman-The Truth is
Katy Perry-Teenage Dream
Lee Dewyze-Live it up
Train-Save me San Francisco
Maroon 5-Songs about Jane
Plain White Ts-Wonders of the younger
Adelitas Way-Home school valedictorian

I dont know what I will say on this journal.I have been going through so much emotionally lately I feel like a train wreck sometimes....... I have to take my nephew back to Missouri and see my new nephew and then I can come back home and begin my journey.I have been living my life for others and all it has done is got me hurt.Time to heal and time to live for me.

Starting Over

I decided I am going to start blogging again.I recently quit my job and spent six weeks in Missouri babysitting my nephew,My sister is getting ready to have another baby boy anytime now.Shes been in labor since 330 am and her contractions are ten minutes apart but consistant.

2010 was a life chnaging and very hard year for me and so far 2011 has been just as bad or worse but I am now trying to get my life back on track.Me and my husband have just celebrated our 18 year anniversary and have been together for 21 years and it took me alot of mistakes to realize that he is my one and only true soulmate.

So we are going to try our absolute hardest to live the rest of our life to the fullest and to spend more time together and make what our already good life was better.I dont have friends other than online that I spend time with or hang out with or even talk to really and its a lonely life sometimes but I have my husband and my son and they are my whole world and thats all that matters and I have my online friends who have been there for me and I appreciate you all very much and love you all dearly.

I am home now but still have my nephew and Im taking him home next week.After that I am going to see my sisters new little one and come back home and start my life again.My heart has been hurting for so long and now its time to repatch it and grow up.Wish me luck!